I know that I have mentioned, in earlier posts, a little about what is going on right now in my family’s life. We have been going through a process of uncertainty for the past 4 months. I am proud to say that we are FINALLY moving out of the in-laws house and into our own!! We move next week to the Charlotte area. D’Artagnon still doesn’t have a job, but we know that he will have an easier time finding one, once we are actually close to the city. Even with this excitement of moving on to a new adventure, I still haven’t been able to find my joy. I know that sounds silly, but with as much pain, heartache, stress, and worry that has come with these last 4 months, I have felt so out of touch with the real me. As a wife and mother, it can be hard to admit that I am struggling. We are supposed to be strong for our husbands and families. I guess I just didn’t know how to put the way I was feeling into words until I read Psalm 13 last night.
O Lord, how long will you forget me? Forever?
How long will you look the other way?
How long must I struggle with anguish in my soul,
With sorrow in my heart every day?
Turn and answer me, O Lord my God!
…Restore the sparkle to my eyes…
…I trust in your unfailing love…
I will sing to the Lord because He is good to me.
I couldn’t have put it any better!! This was such an encouragement and inspiration to me last night. It was as if I was feeling guilty about struggling, but when I read that, it put everything into perspective for me. I love it when that happens!! Even though I feel like He has been silent for 4 months, I will still praise Him because He is faithful!!
O.M.G! Hi Kelly, I just found your blog. THanks for the great comment on my SLacker Mom Post. And wow, I am honored to be on your BLOGROLL!?? I will add you today to mine…you definitely look like your worthy of being “associated” with! I keep pretty high standards of my blog roll, mostly because of this one that brings me A TON OF TRAFFIC! http://www.bethlambdin.net.
Kelly, hang in there and stay strong…you will get through! Keep in touch.
Becky
http://www.beckycollins.wordpress.com
going through things in life is always a struggle…and I know what you mean about having to be strong for everyone else and not show too much of what you are feeling so that they are not burdened with it. Dusty hates it when I do that….it’s my nature I guess. You and Jon have totally impressed me in all of this. You truly have made the best of it and now a new chapter is about to start in another town. I know you will feel that peace and joy again and I hope it comes the moment you step through the door of your new house.
THANK YOU SO MUCH!!